Muselisation

Upon receiving the offer letter from monash regarding success application to on campus transfer, my emotions goes hay wire.
Isnt this what I have been waiting for since the day I was enorolled into the school? Isnt this the day that I have been waiting since the year began? But why are the feeling inside me jumping here and there?
Apart of me is feel so happy that they have accepted and what's more they actually offer us to go to Causfield, after submitting the application, both Pearly and myself was so worry that they may not accept us. Another part of me is feeling dead sad, upon receiving this offer letter simply means that my departure date is drawing near. Many time while looking at my grandmother, my dog, my family, Aiying, Daric, TMC kids or many many more other people I cant help but feel that the tears are filling my eyes and may just give way anytime. When colleagues from Zenitant talk or ask about my departure stuffs I started feeling sad as well. I cant bear to leave each and everyone and everything here, but I keep telling myself, leaving is only for my own good and time passes by veyr fast, I will be back in no time.

Milton I am so sorry for canceling our date today.
Been rushing for all my assignments and been working these few days, so I just wish to stay out from places where there is a lot of people, I really hope you can understand. I will see you soon k, let's go to some interesting places instead.

I was being kaypo and went to visit "his" & "her" friendster's page just now. However, this time round the feeling was no longer the same. I don't feel anything at all, it was like numb and I really mean it. Does this mean I am getting over it? But if I am getting over it, why am I still so kaypo about their life?

Wasn't really doing well for the exercises in Radion and TV journ class. Sometime I really had problem comprehending what Rohani wants us to do, while other time I simply have problem coordinating what I am thinking in words that I am suppose to present. This is definately not the Keryn who was once the best presenter in class, where has the full of confident, not scare of anything and best at smoking Keryn gone to?
I miss the old Keryn who talk like nobody's business and whose brain is working so fast.

Right now trying hard to organise the 11 people gathering, really had a bit of problem trying to gather all 11 of us. I know it's difficult to accomodate to everyone, but still I will try my best, because like I said this is this gathering for all 11. It would definately defeat the purpose is someone is gonna be absent right?

It was just another boring day. Woke up at about 10:50 (*pause for a moment, a strench of durian coming out from the kitchen... Argh~!!! I am choking from it), I remember it because I saw the time on my handphone that was by the side of my bed. Went to class early today so as to meet up the girls for the project discussion. Only Mel and me turn up in the end, Averil had to rush for assignment that is to be due tomorrow, and as for Big Liz had no idea whether she is even coming for lesson or not. Melissa confided in me over some personal problem that had arise lately, and rest assure girl what ever you have done are what I could have done too if i were to be in the same situation. Anyway was done with the assignments dicussion and decided to take a walk but was back in class for lesson in a short while. Everything in class today was the same as any other.

After Sheila ended her class, Mel and I were waiting for Pearly and her group memebers to finish their discussion before we head home. In the mid of meeting, suddenly my phone rang, "it's the TMC ringtone, could it be Melissa?" Took out my phone and only to realise that it's Nicole, I have not seen this woman for ages. She happen to be meeting her 5 at Cityhall and decided to give us a visit. After putting down the phone, I jump up and start packing my things, dragging Melissa along with me to wait for Nicole at the school's staircase. Really misses this girl so much. Dress in a red Zara top and her jeans, she looks wonderful as usual. Spent a little time with her while waiting for Nick and Sam to come out from class, we had our little girlie catch up sessions. After a long wait, Nicole decided to make a move as her friend has already reach. Hope to see the girl soon.

Feeling so tired as I was walking home from the train station, along with me its the heavy laptop and text book that probably shorten my height by a bit more. Now you people understand why I am so short le ba.

Nothing much to do and was surfing around and bump into Bryan's blog on Friendster. All the post were posted like one year ago, and it was all reflections about his trip to Mount Kinnabaru. It was really interesting to read the blog about someone else's blog know what they were doing exactly one year ago. Found a phrase inside that is so true and I had the same sendiments all along, " You Never Walk Alone". This was what I kepting drilling into my brain after the breakup. "I am never alone because I have all my wonderful friends around. I don't need the special someone in my life to be happy."

With this I would like to thank all the people who are there for me these 8 mnths. Always there for me when I most needed someone, to fill my life with wonderful events and to be the special people in my life.

AiYing - You never fail to be there for me no matter what happen. Thanks for your shoulder, your time and all advices.

Daric - Always there to fill my life with laughter, nonsense, activities and encouragements. Thanks for everything papa pimp.

Kylie - Bitching incorporation~! The girl who never fail to filled my life with more and more new things in life. Thanks to my beloved girlfriend.

Melissa - Rabbit Princess live up to her name, always showering me with love, care and concern. Never fail to date me out for girlie chats. Thanks my dear little girl.

Jenny - My shopping kaki, never fail to enjoy each and every shopping seesions. It's always enjoyable to make ourselves pretty together. Thanks girlie, for all the pillow and beauty session.

Milton - Dating will never be the same without you. Interesting dating venues and all the things we did together. Thanks for all the wonderful dates and consistent showering of love.

Jeremy - My nightlife buddy, though it's been quite long since I last seen you. Thanks for spending all the quiet night either at supper or by the windy beach with me. Thanks Jem.

Vincent - He came into my life just when it was at it's lowest point. Showering me with endless lovey dovey messages and sweetness is what this guys is best at. Though he is far from me, but he never fail to make me feel sugar coated. Thanks Boston dear.

Bryan - A simple message on Valentine's day makes my day a happy one. Thanks to this guy who made my day a different one from what I thought it would be. Thank you Silly Old Turtle~!

Of course there are many more like Joel, Apple, Angela, Nor, and many many more. Thanks to all you people out there for the things you have done for me all these time. Love you people all~!
It's been quite sometime since I have written such a long blog, sorry for making you people tired. Take care people~!

We are made in Singapore~!!!

Ah Ken 爷爷 always say "Keryn, she don't like children one la," or "Dont let the kids get near r, or she'll turn violent." However, my current job may make you think otherwise.

Last Friday (110806), I was at Esplanade taking another round of my job. This time round it's a group of P4 kids from Qi Fa Primary School. I must really say this, this is the best group of kids that I had ever taken since I started on this job. These kids are even better than my other students from Maris Stella or even Fairfield Methodist. I did not have to raise my voice or shout at them, and they are so obedient through out the entire trail. One of the guy from the class even perform his singing to his classmates when I request for a performance from them. They are just so cute.....
Well I guess the kids likes me pretty much too, hehehe I am not being thick skin here k.... During our free time the kids were like asking me to go to their school and be their teachers, and well guess this was a great compliment for me from these kids.

Here are some of the photos that I have took of them during the trail:

They are just so excited about the Banana leaves, and ya the kids was asked to blow some music from the banana leaves. Apperently there was only this malay boy from the class who was able to do it.


The future Singpore Idol. So ppl do take note of this face say about 8 years later, kkkk...


What is a day of work without these kids~!!!!

Had a 2nd round of celebration for Daric on the eve of National Day. While everyone was cramping at Esplanade to watch the firework, the few of us decided to head for Sentosa's Palawan Beach and have an evening pinic.

The 5 of us of us are not beach fanatics so we end up spending close to 45 mins spinning around the island just to look for the carpark to the beach. Come to think of it now, it's quite a funny sight actually. Two cars tagging closely to one another, and when the car leading lost it's way we have to park side by side to discuss on where to head.

It's been a long time since we have organise something like that. Thanks to the food prepared by Daric and Tze Min, sandwiches, hotdog buns and RED WINE~!@!! My mother prepared us some fried bee hoon and mix vegs to go with, of course some tidbits to go along with.




The two jokers~!


Birthday boy and his girl~!

Birthday boy enjoying his fried bee hoon


Come have some red wine to fulfill this night

After some food and red wine, we decided to get our butt off the sand and get involved in some ball games. Initially we were playing monkey, but Daric and Kheng was so into the game that the both of them end up passing the ball to one another only. So we switch to playing beach soccer instead, it's the game of the girls vs the guys. And eventually the guys won the game at 3:2, but the girls are good too k...


The so call 'Charlie Angels'



After spending a short evening at the beach, we head to Daric's place for another night of mahjong game as we have always do....

Had a surprise party for Daric last week (050806). It was held at BBQ pit at Tze Min's place. Although it was just the few of us, but it was really enjoyable, nice and simple.
Am a little quite busy and a bit lazy to do a collage these few days, so will just show you some of the fotos that was taken there. Will find time to do up a nice one for u k, Daric....


The birthday boy, arriving surprisingly




Birthday Boy receiving all his funny funny Birthday pressies....




Strawberry Short cake from BAKERZIN


Finally Presenting the group of us~!!!

Lao had a shock out of his life when he spotted the a story book written bu Hillary Clinton in my car this afternoon. The first thing he said was, "Huh serious ah, Keryn this is you book ah??? You really reading this book ah?"
"What's wrong", I replied. I continued, "I know this is so not my kind of book la, but do you have to like react so big??"
"But like one month ago you are still reading that bimbotic book and now you are reading about this woman who is like so garang one," said Joel.

Well the first thing was, in the past you could hardly even see Keryn finish reading an entire story book. But now things are different.
This made me realise that people change from time to time without you yourself even realising it. People can change over the shortest period of time that you can imagine it to be.
Recently, Keryn has been doing a lot of things that not only puzzled the people around her but at the same time are things that she thinks its so amusing.

What are the changes you have seen in yourself this few months??? Are you changing in the direction that you had all along yearn for?

Am officially out of one job today and with this I am left with two jobs. Work work work, study study study, play play play, these are the things that surround my life these few months.

Before I go on I wanna congrat Xiao Wei and her husband for their new born baby girl on the 1st Aug. Xiao Wei 做妈妈了~!!!!!!!

Went back to HSBC yday to meet up with the ex colleagues and friends. There were so many new and unfamiliar faces. The places no longer look like the place that I was once so family with, and the place where I once work so hard at. Really miss Herni, Yani, Nor, Angela, Ying Jia and the rest alot. Those were the days when I really enjoy and love my job so much.

Although I've been pretty tired these few days, but have been thinking about an issue. "What is life all about??? What do I really want from my life???"
Everyone seems to know what sort of job they want in the future and have a rough idea about what they will be doing, except me~! I seem to be the only one who have no idea what I wanna do in the future. I am kinda like just taking a step at a time and not looking ahead. Am I taking the dangerous path???
Everyday, we work so hard. Be it in workplace or in school, we strive to do our best to reach the top. But is that really all you want in life?

Sometime looking at the kids that I took for trails, I really envy them. All they have to worry about are only their school works. The older we grow, the more things that we have to take into consideration, be it financially, academically, and etc.