Muselisation

A sudden relisation that I havent been blogging for more than a month. Recently, I also found out that, this happen once every year, where I will happen to not blog for one whole month.

Anyway, life have been as per normal for me. Found a new job somewhere, been here for a month already, till date surviving pretty well.

Not much life I have since the break up and after I got the job. The working hours here are odd, I start work at 11.30 AM and end work at 8.30 PM. ***You pretty much guess so that I'm still in the office right now*** Been keeping myself occupy on weekends by going for jet ski and making the effort to meet up most of the friends whom I havent seen for a long time.

Sometime, it does felt weird as to the fact that I gotta think of how to occupy my weekends, and also the fact that I have one person lesser by my side now. Nevertheless, I am coping pretty well with my single life out here. To a certain extend, I pretty much enjoy it though. Initially, I thought it would gonna be a tough time for me. But looking at myself now, I guess, I definitely agrees to the term of "No one person is indispensable in this world".

Right, so much for about my life lately, I gonna end here.

For MJ gang's annual retreat, we are heading down to Hong Kong this year. So for the next entry, will prolly be all about my holiday trip to Hong Kong.

Ciaoz~!

Hey I'm not missing...

Just that many things been happening all at one go lately, it was pretty overwhelming that I didn't really have the mood to blog about anything. Things were all happening too fast and too sudden for me to even take a breathe and think.

Good and bad things happens all the time. But for me this time round, all the not so good things seems to be happening all at one go. And these things pretty much covers most aspects that is surrounding my life. It basically ranges from my family, to my career and even my relationship.

Workplace politics is just too common and it happens in most places. But right now, I'm facing politics at home. How can that ever happen right?? Well, it just happens. Sometime its really difficult to juggle between being being the good girl in everyone's eye and being fair to each and every party. Its a human error to be bias to one party despite hearing stories from all angles. On my part, I am trying my best to be objective, not being bias to anyone. I just hope that, things will get better at home and that the dark clouds will soon be gone after the heavy down pour.

As for work... I was left with no choice to leave a job that I enjoyed so much, due to some pushing reasons. In order not to protect everyone, I'm not going to talk about what the pushing reasons are. In actual fact it really took me much courage even when it's only tendering a resignation letter. Nevertheless, I must really say, this is a place where I have really learn a lot things that are beyond classroom. I get to see things that I have never thought I would.

As for relationship, being in a relationship where one party no longer love another is as bad as a chef who have lost his sense of taste. People change, love changes as well. Being the usual stubborn self, I hold on to it believing that we will get pass the bad phase and things will get better eventually. Then again, I have come to realize this theory does not apply to every single issue. Its a case by case basis. In this relationship, I put in my heart and soul ensuring that I do not neglect him or miss out on anything like what I have done in the previous relationship. I did all I can to salvage this relationship, I even went to the extend of changing myself. Friends keep coming to me saying that I'm silly and no point in continuing, but I just went on and on. But like what I've always say, "It takes 2 hands to clap."

It took me quite sometime to finally realize that things are seriously not work out and it is really time to end this agonizing relationship that is pulling both of us down. It was not an easy decision to come up with. A relationship of 1.5 years, with a guy whom I had always dream about dating. 不在乎天长地久， 旨在乎曾经拥有.

Apart from the instant moment where we have both decided to end this mutually, I have not tear a single drop until now. Not that I am not sad about the ending, seriously until now it still very much hurt but I just don't know how to cry suddenly. Buddy Bryan says "Curry, I think you really grow up le." Well, hopefully he is right, and that could be why I am not crying.

"The ex bf" and me are still talking, but it definitely feels weird. Guess and hopefully time will cure.

I kept telling myself "Things can never be worse than what is happening right now, so let's just pray for a better tomorrow."

明天会更好!!!!!!

Its less than 4 months away to my 24th birthday. Being at this age, most people or shall I say most girls are already out there working with a stable job. For me, yes I am part of these people who already started working but unlike them the kid instinct in me still very much exist.

Many people out there comment about the fact that I doesn't look like my age, well I guess to a certain extend mentality does play a crucial role in the condition to your facade. The bf always complain that I'm a kid, seeking for endless attention and making childish request. Just moments ago, I was given a piece of mind again about how weak he thinks I am in terms of stress management. For that, I do agree that my ability in managing stress is worse than a kid taking PSLE. And because of this reason, back in university days I always start on my assignments a few weeks earlier than my friends. Other wise I will start having emotional break down when the deadlines are near, which will eventually result in me to not doing any of my work at all.

Earlier I was telling a friend that, it's so difficult to be an adult, because you have to try different ways to cope with different form of stress. For me I love being a kid, all I have to do was just go to school, do my homework and go for exam (Despite the fact that exam is another form of stress). I don't want to GROW UP, then again I have no control over such things.

My environment is forcing me to grow up, my family is forcing me to grow up, my parents are forcing me to grow up and now even the bf is forcing me to grow up. Sometime, after work when I go home, I just hope to be in a comfort zone being sheltered away from stormy weather outside. But I guess the bf had enough of me being a kid, so decided to just throw me out to fight the storm alone and strengthen me by pouring icy water on me. In a way, I do understand and know that he meant well. On the other hand, I'm almost frozen to death soon...

It's ironic as to how fragile life can be.

The man who tend the mama shop at the void deck of my house pass away just yesterday. Being 55 years old (according to my grandma) single man, he decided to end his life just like that.

Though he is not someone who is very close to my family, but both him and his shop had been around for the longest time I can remember. His shop has inevitably been the part of many children's childhood and that of course include me.

Those were the much younger days where I never fail to patronize his shop for the 20 cents frozen syrup tube, the 50 cents tubular push up chocolate ice cream and the 40 cents orange bar sherbet ice cream. Not forgetting those "lao hong" crackers too (recalled by my sister). Although we have always been complaining about the expiry date of the food at his shop, but eventually at the end of the day we still go back to him for our once in a while junk food crave.

The news still came as a shock to everyone, although we know that his business was already not doing well for sometime and that he was on several medication.

Both my grandmother and father were pretty upset about the tragic, but I guess thats just another part of life. All I can hope for now is just that he can rest in peace and have a better life in the nether land.

Just a note here to inform all that, my mj gang have recently start up a new blog page, titled My Weird Friends, and this can be located at www.ihavewe1rdfriends.blogspot.com.

Right now the page is undergoing some design construction. Nevertheless, it is still functioning like nobody's business (*See it to know what I mean*). So do catch those off-stage ugly and hideous moments on My Weird Friends.

Just few entries back I was swaying about how much I miss the polo girls...
***Poof*** One day YZ called me and ask me to organize for a gathering. First of all, it was rather difficult to be able to find her. Secondly, she making the call herself to ask for gathering, I was really caught by surprise.
Of course, not wanting to disappoint her and the rest of the girls, once again I took on the role of the organizer and call for the gathering. I really appreciate everyone's effort for making themselves available for this night affair. Everyone, except for the two who was down under, Cheryl was back though but no one knew, attended this gathering. Its been about 3 years since we last went out in such a big group.

1st Stop: Fisherman Wharf
Apparently, the photos are on Serene's camera, so I could upload it when I get hold of it. Then again we were all famish, so there wasn't much photos too.

2nd Stop: Fashion Bar


We were lucky that we went in early, so there were still plenty of seats available.

So here we go, the photo whore session starts...
*PS.: Due to the lighting problem, the photos look a bit 80s*


职业病, she actually bring out a torch light!! We were all shock and laughing like mad when we saw that thing there.


Me, He Shan & Ting Yi


Serene & Candice


The Sober and Reserve period


Starting to go mad...


Wei Ning & Serene


Yue Zhen & Candice


Don't know what they doing also...


Yue Zhen 很久没有被放出来了...
Candice: "Yue Zhen! Please control yourself!"








Wei Ning always like to 抢镜头

Challenge to the 十六连拍:
Take 1

Result: FAIL!

Take 2

Result: ... Ok la~!



3rd Stop: The Ord Bridge

They were trying to jump the bridge



Finally a group photo for Cheryl before we go home...

That's all for now folks... Stay tuned for more pictures....

While mummy came near me to look at the photos that were taken earlier on at the Singapore Flyer, the dog thought we were playing and so he join in the fun too...

It's been a long while since we last had a family day where everyone is around.
Kiden was back from Down under for her winter break, Ah Ma was not out and of course I was not out too.
So just on yesterday we manage to gather everyone and set off to the Singapore Flyer for our long deserve family day.


We Started off the hour long photo whore session


Mummy & Ah Ma!


Didn't realise my father have such a big head until this photo


We Three...


She failed in the "16 shots at one go" challenge


The vain mother and daughter


We leg~!


The participants


My father says, "The sister-ly pose"


Let Us Welcome the 10,000th guest to the Singapore Flyer~!

It's a new game in the office, THE ROACHES BATTLE~!

After knowing that Todd is afraid of roaches, the very next day Rach brought in the fake cockroach that she bought from Thailand.

This is how it looks like...

Don't you think it looks damn real!

Wanting to play a prank on my boss, one day when he was out for a meeting I planted this little thing under his laptop like this...

When I came back from the my meeting, I found this thing on my table with a label "This is a war!"

Haha, this is one thing that I never understand why guys are so afraid of cockroaches???
I never fail to have a fun time playing with them...

It was a busy busy day~!!!
Lately I was assign new task to do some stock reporting program, and that has became the first thing to do once I step into the office. It can be pretty irritating sometimes, because it will usually take up the whole morning and I can't proceed with my other work. Let's hope it will get better as the day goes by.
Anyway, there's something else that is worth mentioning more. After meeting one of the client at Esplanade, I bump into Wei Keong at the MRT station when I was on my way back to office. I was like damn excited la~! Ok, Wei Keong was my team mate cum close friend back in poly days, one of the first few guys who ever stayed over at my place. I remember those were the days where Wei Peng and him will always bunk in at my house when we have competition at Kallang the next day. The feeling of bumping into an old friend who is studying overseas is damn good la.
That was one. After I got home, I realized I have miss calls on my mobile phone. To my surprise, it was Yue Zhen, another close team mate, one of the girls who have fought with me through the tough days.
I must say this again,
I really miss CANOE POLO...
I miss being the No. 4
I miss my Kinetic Paddle
I miss my Vampire Boat
I miss my SPGs
I miss my SPCT
I miss my yellow color Mikasa Ball


No idea what's Walter doing in the Photo


Our first game, and our first Bronze medal~!


People most important to me
Cheryl (Captain) - Chaser
Wei Ning (Captain) - Chaser
Ting Yi (Captain) - Chaser
Yue Zhen (Vice-Cap) - Chaser
He Shang - Keeper (Generation 1)
Serene - Keeper (Generation 2)
Wen Qi - Zoner (My all time best partner when zoning, its amazing how we became best partners in zoning. Also, not forgetting the fact about our fantastic loop ball goals, only by the two of us, which never fail to impress Jackson and others from the guys team.)
Keryn- Zoner too!!!


These were taken after the best and last match we played together.
The best game that everyone of us will never forget~!

Just realize something, its been 3 years since I started blogging.
Since young I had always wanted and tried my best to start on writing journal, since my teachers always says that keeping journal will help in your writing skill. But never ever was it a successful one, the journal will always be nicely decorated and end off with at most, 2 entries.

It's amazing when I look back at why and how I started on this blogging thingy. I started this blog with the intention of wanting to be my photo gallery to my friends, but somehow it doesn't turn out to be the way I had initially wanted it to be. Another is that, regular visitors at my blog may have spotted the change in my style of writing. Not forgetting the improvement I have made in terms of language. Sometimes, when I look back at some of the old entries, I can't help but laugh very loudly. All I can say is probably, "The language is super cui la~! Whats worse, is the flow of the entries, gosh~! they are so(X100000000000) super cannot make it." Really wonder how you guys are able to make do with the language and still stay tuned for years. ***Salute~!***

Thanks to all those who have been private messaging me with regards to my previous post, really appreciate you guys a lot. In any case, I've been through the worse time of my life, so if anything is really gonna happen, I think there's nothing much that I can do about and I guess I'll be able to cope with it should something not so good happen.

真正的爱情是不会成为追求梦想的绊脚石

我是否已经在无形中成为了他追求梦想的障碍？？？

为什么实生活总是得和梦想相差得那么远吗？？？

完美爱情的定义究竟又是什么呢？
难道要一方默默不断的付出，这才叫爱情吗？

Why do I feel like everything around me is dropping hints to me that our time is up, and everything is coming to an end soon.

Why do problems come one after another, why do they have to take turns to surface and not just sit there and be good?

Am I living in the real life with everything really happening, or am I still living in my dreams?

Moments ago I was watching an info-ed show on MobTV, "Find me a Singaporean 2" hosted by Belinda.

On episode 4, they were featuring this Singapore lady, Stella, who had married a Brazilian Chinese and since then been relocated to Brazil for 20 over years.

Since don't know when, I never understand why people around are always telling me they don't like it here, they want to migrate, they want to go to another country so on so forth. Many of these times I was thinking in my heart, "Is Singapore really that bad?"

For me, I love this place, although from time to time I do complain about how sucky the government can get sometime. Then again, I never dare to imagine life outside Singapore. Yes, I love traveling, visiting other countries, but at the end of the day, I will always come back to this place where I call home.

It is hard not to imagine how not Singaporean Stella would be, after knowing that she has been away for 20 years. But to my surprise, not only does she look Singaporean, she speak like an authentic Singaporean too. It was not difficult to catch her speaking with the typical Singlish accent, and all those linguistic term that only Singaporean understand what it meant, e.g. "Giam Xeng Ti", "Jia Lat", etc.

The most touching part of the show was, when Belinda handed Stella all the presents that she have brought from Singapore. Belinda bought her a packet of Ba Gua, and Stella's mother actually got Belinda to help her pass the Pineapple tarts and Hae Be Hiam that she have made to Stella. The moment Stella saw the food that her mother has made, her tears burst out Needless to say, I started tearing too. It's amazing, how someone who has been away from home for so many years, misses Singapore so so so so much. I really feel very touched, and trust me I was so touch that my goose bumps started starting (***In a good way***).

Belinda says, "In Singapore we know we lead a good life, but still we always take everything around us for granted. But after visiting Stella, I have learn that I should appreciate everything and everyone that I have with me back in Singapore."

人总是要等到失去了才懂得珍惜!

Just last week, Rach showed me this clip on YouTube about this guy who took photo of himself everyday over a period of 6 years.

When I first watch the video, I felt kinda of eerie, it was a weird feeling. After a while, it became a little emotional, it's like so amazing that one person can change so much over 6 years and you are not aware of the changes yourself. This video definitely support the saying of "Time waits for no man".



Now let me think, what was I doing 6 years ago.....
6 years ago at this very day, I think I was still attending classes at SP. Eagerly looking forward to the day ending, so that I could rush down to the club house and play Carom with the rest.
Oh well, if you ask me, I definitely think that I look so much better 6 years ago, haha...

Sars Selamat from spiritedly on Comiqs

2 months into this 2nd job of mine and I've yet to mention anything about the office.
Oh well... This is a small company that I am working in now with only 3 people, including myself.

Nothing much for me to complain about, and all I can say is I do have a good boss here. He really took care of us, and we are have the freedom to display our creativity and my boss is open to ideas and comments made by us.

My only colleague, Rachel, shares the same hobby as me and that is fashion. Then again, when it comes to fashion stuffs all girls become good friend. We shop online (in the office), at the shopping during lunch time and most of the time we will cam whore in the office taking all sort of nonsensies photos.

As much as I'm in concern, I do enjoy this job very much. With the amount of freedom that I have, the work scope that I'm involve, there nothing more that I can ask for I guess... Hmp, maybe I can only for higher pay? (***Hahaha hope my boss read this***)

On my table, I'm surrounded by lots of toys and presents from Rachel. Check some of them out in the photos here:

These two are name card holders made by Rach, think she bought the stickers and the case from Daiso, nice right!

That's hers


And that's mine


Diesel's sample perfume, nice packaging right. All you have to do is just to press the center of the box and you will get the perfume coming out.


Ribena's ice-pop mould


Cheese ring from Rach


Rach's hedgehog, but I forgotten how it ended up on my table.

More photos coming up, I promise, hehehe...

It was just another lazy working day, though it was only the mid week but it seem like a lazy Fri, well guess that's because it a PH tmr.

Decided to head out for lunch at Raffle City, because Rachel decided to buy an early gift for Todd's wife (she's going to pop her son out this sat).


(***Flowers Flowers Flowers***)

After Rach and I went separate directions to get our own things I bump into the 3 babes from Taxi Design, not that they do the designing for the taxis in Singapore, but rather that's the name of their company. Anyway so much for saying again and again that we should meet for lunch, I actually bump into them having lunch. So hey girls! We must really keep our words and meet up someday k! Lol~!


***Dewi, Me, Jacquie & Judy***

Earlier this morning, Rach handed a Todd a pay cheque from the First Media Design School. He was overwhelm, trust me! He was so excited that he keep insisting that we should take a photo of the cheque and a photo of him with the cheque. Well, like what he say, this is the first time someone actually wrote a cheque "Payable: Active Channel Pte Ltd", so I guess as a boss it always feel excited to get your first pay cheque from client.


***The excited boss with his first pay cheque***