Saw him today
What about today???
Last night I was doing my doing my Coms Essay until 2+, so this morning when I went to I seriously look like a walking zombie. Initially, I actually don't plan to go for comms lesson in the afternoon one, as I was really too tired to do so already. Went for lunch with the gang at Cafe Cartel, afterwhich, I just walk into the class without knowing it myself. But all these are not the main points. The thing is I don't know why but I kept having this feeling that I will see him today. It's been like 2 months plus almost 3 months since school had started at TMC, I have always been afraid that I might just bump onto him one day, but the feeling that I had experience today was totally a different one. It so happen that my class for coms is designated to be at 02-01 and directly opposite the room are two computer labs, whenever I walked past the rooms I will just turn my head to the room and see if he is inside. But of course he was not there, and I was thinking maybe because my brains are playing with me and I didn't give a damn to the feeling anymore. The lesson again of course again turn out to be rather boring, Nicole, Jasper and I ended up singing and playing inside. Again like any other coms lesson, I just simply can't wait for the arrival of break. When Dr. Nice announce it's break time I just rush all the way out for the break, but due to some dillying dallying here and there everything was drag la huh. Went for break with Nicole and Mel, was walking towards the Old Chang Kee, and suddenly have the urge to buy some fancy necklace so drag Nicole into Sinma, but there was nothing that caught my eye there. And at this point of time Nicole was suggesting to go to the other shop further down at the direction towards TMC, so we walk out of the shop and head for the other shop. It's at this moment, I saw this guy in red polo-tee, I can recognise the back view. It's him, Shu Yun Chris, the guy whom I had been afraid to bump into. Please don't tell me that I might have seen him wrongly, I knew I was right it was him it was really him. At instant moment I saw him I immediately u-turn and walk back without informing Nicole who was like walking infront of me. I don't think he saw me, because his back was facing me when I saw him. For the next 10-20 mins my heart just go beating, and I was trying real hard to recover from shockness. It was until I had make sure that he walked away that I drag Kylie into the shop to get a necklace. After that, whenever someone wearing red walk pass, my focus will turn to the fellow immediately. Be it a girl or a guy, at any distance so long it's within my sight, I will definately turn towards the direction. It's not that I am afraid to see him or I am still thinking, it's just that it definately came as a shock really and I must really say, this guy has already got out from my heart. I have gave up any and every thoughts about him, this guy have hurt me so much so that until a point time where I was very afraid to get into relationship. This guy, it's just not the guy for me.
What about today???
Last night I was doing my doing my Coms Essay until 2+, so this morning when I went to I seriously look like a walking zombie. Initially, I actually don't plan to go for comms lesson in the afternoon one, as I was really too tired to do so already. Went for lunch with the gang at Cafe Cartel, afterwhich, I just walk into the class without knowing it myself. But all these are not the main points. The thing is I don't know why but I kept having this feeling that I will see him today. It's been like 2 months plus almost 3 months since school had started at TMC, I have always been afraid that I might just bump onto him one day, but the feeling that I had experience today was totally a different one. It so happen that my class for coms is designated to be at 02-01 and directly opposite the room are two computer labs, whenever I walked past the rooms I will just turn my head to the room and see if he is inside. But of course he was not there, and I was thinking maybe because my brains are playing with me and I didn't give a damn to the feeling anymore. The lesson again of course again turn out to be rather boring, Nicole, Jasper and I ended up singing and playing inside. Again like any other coms lesson, I just simply can't wait for the arrival of break. When Dr. Nice announce it's break time I just rush all the way out for the break, but due to some dillying dallying here and there everything was drag la huh. Went for break with Nicole and Mel, was walking towards the Old Chang Kee, and suddenly have the urge to buy some fancy necklace so drag Nicole into Sinma, but there was nothing that caught my eye there. And at this point of time Nicole was suggesting to go to the other shop further down at the direction towards TMC, so we walk out of the shop and head for the other shop. It's at this moment, I saw this guy in red polo-tee, I can recognise the back view. It's him, Shu Yun Chris, the guy whom I had been afraid to bump into. Please don't tell me that I might have seen him wrongly, I knew I was right it was him it was really him. At instant moment I saw him I immediately u-turn and walk back without informing Nicole who was like walking infront of me. I don't think he saw me, because his back was facing me when I saw him. For the next 10-20 mins my heart just go beating, and I was trying real hard to recover from shockness. It was until I had make sure that he walked away that I drag Kylie into the shop to get a necklace. After that, whenever someone wearing red walk pass, my focus will turn to the fellow immediately. Be it a girl or a guy, at any distance so long it's within my sight, I will definately turn towards the direction. It's not that I am afraid to see him or I am still thinking, it's just that it definately came as a shock really and I must really say, this guy has already got out from my heart. I have gave up any and every thoughts about him, this guy have hurt me so much so that until a point time where I was very afraid to get into relationship. This guy, it's just not the guy for me.
Despite all the pain I have gone through after the breakup, I must still thank Shu Yun. Why say so, well it was him who make me realise how good my friends are, and it was him who make me so much closer to my family now. I was into depression after the break up and at the same time it was during my final yr in Poly which is also quite a crucial year. It was at that time that, all my friends offer their arms, and shoulder for me to pour out everything that's inside my heart, Linus, Daniel, Samuel, Hzlinah, AiYing and Daric, it's all these people who help me pull through this period of time. Shu Yun also made me understand many things in life, one of which is the quote I use in "the girl" 'you don't need someone else to live your life for, instead live your life for yourself and you will realise how much more a happier person you can be.'
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