Muselisation

A sudden relisation that I havent been blogging for more than a month. Recently, I also found out that, this happen once every year, where I will happen to not blog for one whole month.

Anyway, life have been as per normal for me. Found a new job somewhere, been here for a month already, till date surviving pretty well.

Not much life I have since the break up and after I got the job. The working hours here are odd, I start work at 11.30 AM and end work at 8.30 PM. ***You pretty much guess so that I'm still in the office right now*** Been keeping myself occupy on weekends by going for jet ski and making the effort to meet up most of the friends whom I havent seen for a long time.

Sometime, it does felt weird as to the fact that I gotta think of how to occupy my weekends, and also the fact that I have one person lesser by my side now. Nevertheless, I am coping pretty well with my single life out here. To a certain extend, I pretty much enjoy it though. Initially, I thought it would gonna be a tough time for me. But looking at myself now, I guess, I definitely agrees to the term of "No one person is indispensable in this world".

Right, so much for about my life lately, I gonna end here.

For MJ gang's annual retreat, we are heading down to Hong Kong this year. So for the next entry, will prolly be all about my holiday trip to Hong Kong.

Ciaoz~!

Hey I'm not missing...

Just that many things been happening all at one go lately, it was pretty overwhelming that I didn't really have the mood to blog about anything. Things were all happening too fast and too sudden for me to even take a breathe and think.

Good and bad things happens all the time. But for me this time round, all the not so good things seems to be happening all at one go. And these things pretty much covers most aspects that is surrounding my life. It basically ranges from my family, to my career and even my relationship.

Workplace politics is just too common and it happens in most places. But right now, I'm facing politics at home. How can that ever happen right?? Well, it just happens. Sometime its really difficult to juggle between being being the good girl in everyone's eye and being fair to each and every party. Its a human error to be bias to one party despite hearing stories from all angles. On my part, I am trying my best to be objective, not being bias to anyone. I just hope that, things will get better at home and that the dark clouds will soon be gone after the heavy down pour.

As for work... I was left with no choice to leave a job that I enjoyed so much, due to some pushing reasons. In order not to protect everyone, I'm not going to talk about what the pushing reasons are. In actual fact it really took me much courage even when it's only tendering a resignation letter. Nevertheless, I must really say, this is a place where I have really learn a lot things that are beyond classroom. I get to see things that I have never thought I would.

As for relationship, being in a relationship where one party no longer love another is as bad as a chef who have lost his sense of taste. People change, love changes as well. Being the usual stubborn self, I hold on to it believing that we will get pass the bad phase and things will get better eventually. Then again, I have come to realize this theory does not apply to every single issue. Its a case by case basis. In this relationship, I put in my heart and soul ensuring that I do not neglect him or miss out on anything like what I have done in the previous relationship. I did all I can to salvage this relationship, I even went to the extend of changing myself. Friends keep coming to me saying that I'm silly and no point in continuing, but I just went on and on. But like what I've always say, "It takes 2 hands to clap."

It took me quite sometime to finally realize that things are seriously not work out and it is really time to end this agonizing relationship that is pulling both of us down. It was not an easy decision to come up with. A relationship of 1.5 years, with a guy whom I had always dream about dating. 不在乎天长地久， 旨在乎曾经拥有.

Apart from the instant moment where we have both decided to end this mutually, I have not tear a single drop until now. Not that I am not sad about the ending, seriously until now it still very much hurt but I just don't know how to cry suddenly. Buddy Bryan says "Curry, I think you really grow up le." Well, hopefully he is right, and that could be why I am not crying.

"The ex bf" and me are still talking, but it definitely feels weird. Guess and hopefully time will cure.

I kept telling myself "Things can never be worse than what is happening right now, so let's just pray for a better tomorrow."

明天会更好!!!!!!

Its less than 4 months away to my 24th birthday. Being at this age, most people or shall I say most girls are already out there working with a stable job. For me, yes I am part of these people who already started working but unlike them the kid instinct in me still very much exist.

Many people out there comment about the fact that I doesn't look like my age, well I guess to a certain extend mentality does play a crucial role in the condition to your facade. The bf always complain that I'm a kid, seeking for endless attention and making childish request. Just moments ago, I was given a piece of mind again about how weak he thinks I am in terms of stress management. For that, I do agree that my ability in managing stress is worse than a kid taking PSLE. And because of this reason, back in university days I always start on my assignments a few weeks earlier than my friends. Other wise I will start having emotional break down when the deadlines are near, which will eventually result in me to not doing any of my work at all.

Earlier I was telling a friend that, it's so difficult to be an adult, because you have to try different ways to cope with different form of stress. For me I love being a kid, all I have to do was just go to school, do my homework and go for exam (Despite the fact that exam is another form of stress). I don't want to GROW UP, then again I have no control over such things.

My environment is forcing me to grow up, my family is forcing me to grow up, my parents are forcing me to grow up and now even the bf is forcing me to grow up. Sometime, after work when I go home, I just hope to be in a comfort zone being sheltered away from stormy weather outside. But I guess the bf had enough of me being a kid, so decided to just throw me out to fight the storm alone and strengthen me by pouring icy water on me. In a way, I do understand and know that he meant well. On the other hand, I'm almost frozen to death soon...

It's ironic as to how fragile life can be.

The man who tend the mama shop at the void deck of my house pass away just yesterday. Being 55 years old (according to my grandma) single man, he decided to end his life just like that.

Though he is not someone who is very close to my family, but both him and his shop had been around for the longest time I can remember. His shop has inevitably been the part of many children's childhood and that of course include me.

Those were the much younger days where I never fail to patronize his shop for the 20 cents frozen syrup tube, the 50 cents tubular push up chocolate ice cream and the 40 cents orange bar sherbet ice cream. Not forgetting those "lao hong" crackers too (recalled by my sister). Although we have always been complaining about the expiry date of the food at his shop, but eventually at the end of the day we still go back to him for our once in a while junk food crave.

The news still came as a shock to everyone, although we know that his business was already not doing well for sometime and that he was on several medication.

Both my grandmother and father were pretty upset about the tragic, but I guess thats just another part of life. All I can hope for now is just that he can rest in peace and have a better life in the nether land.

Just a note here to inform all that, my mj gang have recently start up a new blog page, titled My Weird Friends, and this can be located at www.ihavewe1rdfriends.blogspot.com.

Right now the page is undergoing some design construction. Nevertheless, it is still functioning like nobody's business (*See it to know what I mean*). So do catch those off-stage ugly and hideous moments on My Weird Friends.

Just few entries back I was swaying about how much I miss the polo girls...
***Poof*** One day YZ called me and ask me to organize for a gathering. First of all, it was rather difficult to be able to find her. Secondly, she making the call herself to ask for gathering, I was really caught by surprise.
Of course, not wanting to disappoint her and the rest of the girls, once again I took on the role of the organizer and call for the gathering. I really appreciate everyone's effort for making themselves available for this night affair. Everyone, except for the two who was down under, Cheryl was back though but no one knew, attended this gathering. Its been about 3 years since we last went out in such a big group.

1st Stop: Fisherman Wharf
Apparently, the photos are on Serene's camera, so I could upload it when I get hold of it. Then again we were all famish, so there wasn't much photos too.

2nd Stop: Fashion Bar


We were lucky that we went in early, so there were still plenty of seats available.

So here we go, the photo whore session starts...
*PS.: Due to the lighting problem, the photos look a bit 80s*


职业病, she actually bring out a torch light!! We were all shock and laughing like mad when we saw that thing there.


Me, He Shan & Ting Yi


Serene & Candice


The Sober and Reserve period


Starting to go mad...


Wei Ning & Serene


Yue Zhen & Candice


Don't know what they doing also...


Yue Zhen 很久没有被放出来了...
Candice: "Yue Zhen! Please control yourself!"








Wei Ning always like to 抢镜头

Challenge to the 十六连拍:
Take 1

Result: FAIL!

Take 2

Result: ... Ok la~!



3rd Stop: The Ord Bridge

They were trying to jump the bridge



Finally a group photo for Cheryl before we go home...

That's all for now folks... Stay tuned for more pictures....

While mummy came near me to look at the photos that were taken earlier on at the Singapore Flyer, the dog thought we were playing and so he join in the fun too...